Cultivate…that’s the title of a book I am working my way through. The full title is actually, Cultivate ~ A Grace-Filled Guide to Growing an Intentional Life. It’s by Lara Casey. I find myself pondering on the big ideas and doing a lot of reflecting. So, it’s not a fast read. It’s more of a work book to help you create a flourishing life and let go of perfection. I don’t know about you, but I could use a few lessons on this very thing.
Don’t get me wrong. I have a good life. A wonderful, loving family. We enjoy good health. We have jobs and a roof over our heads. This is more than many people can say. Especially now, when so many people are struggling through catastrophic events. Without a doubt, I am blessed. Still, I wonder, do I live the life I am supposed to live? Am I doing the “right” things? Is God pleased with me? Do I set the right example for my kids? Is my life flourishing or am I just going through the motions? Is there more? Please tell me I’m not alone in these thoughts. So, when I stumbled upon this little book, I knew I had to read it.
Hello my name is Jenny and I am a perfectionist. I try to hide my perfectionist, controlling tendencies. I realize this may not be my best quality. It is true that sometimes I so focus on making things ‘perfect’ that I forget to enjoy the moments. I find myself constantly torn between the two ~ I want to live life and enjoy it AND I want to make things as close to perfect as I can.
This is especially true in my family life. I want to be the BEST mom, the BEST wife, decorate my home perfectly, celebrate every holiday and then some, create life-long memories, and document them all in beautiful scrapbooks. My home needs to be clean and clutter free. I must make time for everyone plus a workout each day. It’s a lot. Can you relate? Does this sound at all like you? If you say yes, we should be friends. 🙂
Of course, I impose much of this never-ending to-do list. I do it to myself! Mr. LouiseMarie does not need a clean house. He can’t see the clutter. The kids just want to play video games. They couldn’t care less about the decor of our home. In fact, I am not sure they would recognize the BEST wife or mom if she punched them in the nose. So, why then do I put so much pressure on myself?
I was struck by this analogy. Casey says that trying to live an intentional life without making a mess is like trying to garden in white pants. To me this means that trying to fully live and enjoy your life while trying to not mess up or be less than perfect is futile. You can’t do both. That’s a hard idea to really accept because it means letting go of a life-long habit of expecting to do things perfectly. I do expect a lot of myself. Still, it rings true that when you focus on being perfect you miss out on the joy in the moment.
Another take away is the idea of thinking you can handle more than you actually can. You know, doing too much and not doing any of it well. This is one that I feel all of the time… trying to be a wife, a mom, a friend, a sister, a teacher, a blogger… I wonder if I try to do too much and if I were to cut back would I do a better job of any one of them? The question is…which do I give up? Where do I cut-back?
The idea is really about learning to simplify. Learning to say no. Giving yourself room to cultivate the things that matter most to you. Casey states the obvious ~ we only have so much time, energy, and resources to give. We have to choose wisely. I know it seems obvious. None of these are new ideas to me; however, there is something about the way Casey writes that really gives me pause.
Along these same lines, this idea has really struck me:
“But I’ve learned there is no guilt needed when times of overload press in; there’s just grace and an opportunity to shift. When life changes, as it often will as we grow, something has to shift or overload occurs.” pg. 33
I frequently feel overloaded or overwhelmed. I need to let something shift. So, I am working to determine what I really want to cultivate, what I need to let go of, and what shifts I need to make in my life. If you see the need to make some changes in your life, read this book along with me. I’m only finishing chapter one and I would love to hear what you think about these ideas.
Or, you can learn more by visiting Lara’s website here.
So, are you struggling like me trying to spend your time and energy on what really matters? Have you already conquered this and you’re living your best life? Either way, I want to hear about it. Comment below, and don’t forget, please join my email list here so that all my posts are delivered right to you.
Until next time~